this used to be a blog about OCD, and then it turned into a blog about processing childhood abuse as an adult. sort of. i also post about music, dana scully, books, and homeland.

 

tumblr, it's not you, it's me.

i’ve been feeling for a while that tumblr just isn’t the right platform for me, so i’ve decided to euthanize thatpaintingelephant and revive my old blog. this tumblr started as a way for me to figure out my OCD, and then as a way for me to figure out my childhood abuse. but i feel that i’ve reached a state of equilibrium with those demons, and i’d like to go back to writing about my love of all things cleveland, transit, bikes, and knitting in a more wide open space. come visit!

the OCD enthusiast: When I see friends discuss Lena Dunham with absolute vitriol,

riskofmyfeelings:

wrapherinvelvet:

I think, “If you hate Lena Dunham that much, I can only imagine how much you must hate me.” I’m a young white woman with an expensive education, and I’ve done very little of note in my life. And maybe that’s indefensible.

But Lena Dunham is the writer, producer, and star…

I’ll address this since I was the one who brought up the cost of her education after curiosity had me running a google search.   That specific point isn’t something I’ve run into in Lena discussion must elsewhere, so I’m taking the post as targeted towards, if not at, me.

I’m personally not a fan of Lena Dunham, no, nor the upper and upper-middle classes, nor the idea that a show about twenty-something white Girls in New York City who will eventually assume their places in those classes is revolutionary or interesting or even remotely worth talking about in the discourse of social change.  If people want to discuss Lena’s work and its entertainment value for other white girls, that’s cool.  I won’t jump on that just like I don’t jump on the millions of other shows fulfilling exactly the same niche.  If Lena is going to be held up as an example of an impressive career feat that’s possible for rich, white, girls, that’s cool, too.  Don’t pretend like it’s more than that, and I won’t bother you with my pesky realities.

 ”Girls” grinds my gears because of the tags that are attached to it and the cultural phenomena that Carrie mentioned around it—one that includes an idea that this show is Really Doing Something.  I’m sure it’s a fantastic aid for the self-esteem of upper-middle and upper-class girls.  If those girls want to call it revolutionary, though, well… that’s just lazy social commentary from people whose money should have bought them better critical thinking skills.

i should have known you started this! 

after writing the post you reblogged, i watched the pilot of girls. i found it good but not enjoyable. it was interesting in the same way that eating unidentified beef particles in a thai noodle bowl is interesting (this analogy brought to you by personal experience). 

i actually found myself laughing out loud at certain points and cringing at others. even though i was born into poverty, i could still see some of my own desires and mistakes reflected in the show. it sort of reminded me of catcher in the rye. and while yes, lena dunham is rich and white, she is still doing something that other 25 year old women haven’t been able to do until now. so is she the poster girl for intersectionality? no. but i still see her position as a victory. 

(Source: waterweeds)

thegoddamazon:

witchhouseparty:

noiseankisses:

holy diabetus 

image

This is just needlessly tempting.

Like my nipples got hard looking at this what is this i can’t.

When I see friends discuss Lena Dunham with absolute vitriol,

wrapherinvelvet:

I think, “If you hate Lena Dunham that much, I can only imagine how much you must hate me.”  I’m a young white woman with an expensive education, and I’ve done very little of note in my life.  And maybe that’s indefensible.  

But Lena Dunham is the writer, producer, and star of a television show.  A really good show.  That’s an extraordinary thing for a woman to be at 26 (or any age, of course). 

I refuse to believe that a male writer would attract even a percentage of that rage for any amount of privilege, or any lack of inclusivity.

And inclusivity is really important!  It should be discussed!  It should be a priority!  I’m glad that there’s been so much discussion generated by Girls, because these are discussions we need.  The lack of diversity on Girls (and virtually every other show on the air) should be criticized.  But there is a difference between criticism and evisceration.  

yeah. wealth is frequently a hereditary condition and hating someone for circumstances they were born into is stupid. i haven’t seen girls, and i don’t know anything about lena dunham except for the fact that she lives with her parents, but i think it’s awesome that a woman in her mid-20s has a huge cultural thing that’s under her control. 

my beautiful harmony wood needles came in!
today i …
worked on my scarf
fucked up my scarf
fixed my scarf
fucked up my scarf
fixed my scarf
and now i’m still about 12 rows behind where i started this morning.
oh well. yay new needles!

my beautiful harmony wood needles came in!

today i …

  • worked on my scarf
  • fucked up my scarf
  • fixed my scarf
  • fucked up my scarf
  • fixed my scarf

and now i’m still about 12 rows behind where i started this morning.

oh well. yay new needles!

lostfrostprince:

indeathmayibetriumphant:

sighbastiansmythe:

lolpeeniss69:

lolpeeniss69:

rosemaryfinchs:

Seniors at my school made this and its literally the sickest thing ever

i actually love my high school sometimes because things like this happen

but really everyone watch this

reblogging again because it’s the editor’s dream to have it hit 1000000 views it would be the best graduation present ever please help us xoxo

Oh man this is the coolest thing.

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I

no words

just

yes

good

axon-axoff:


1) Scrub an avocado pit clean.
2) Scrape/peel off the brown skin.
3) Carve a cute face and wait ten minutes.
4) Never sleep again.


DEAR GOD

axon-axoff:

1) Scrub an avocado pit clean.

2) Scrape/peel off the brown skin.

3) Carve a cute face and wait ten minutes.

4) Never sleep again.

DEAR GOD

riskofmyfeelings:

paintingelephantofbeingawesome:

riskofmyfeelings:

paintingelephantofbeingawesome:

two evenings of torture! #knitting

Fucking sorcery.

i literally can’t believe that i’m capable of such things.

It’s REALLY gorgeous.  I aspire to your level.

thank you! hopefully in a week it will grow up and be a real scarf.